I qualified in june 2019 to work within a Nursery.
Just after qualifying I found out I was pregnant with DC so I had to stay in my current job as a bank Nursing Assistant within the NHS to get my maternity pay.
After having DC covid hit and 2 years later I'm still in a job I don't particularly like and feel like a failure not doing a job I qualified for.
Child care is scarce where I stay and we can't rely on family so right now I work night shift DH works mon-friday full time.
I had a bad few weeks at work and applied for a few jobs within nurseries and have gotten interviews for every one I applied for. The only thing is on the slight off chance I would find childcare, I would make less working full time monday to friday after paying out childcare and fuel than I would working 1-2 full nighshifts.
What would you do in my position on the off chance I am offered a job?
I would feel guilty having to get my kids up early just so I can work as right now I work round about them. I feel like if I was to change jobs everyone else would suffer.
I feel like I either stay in a job I dislike but get to keep my full wage and even though its exhausting work round about family life or change job have a less money and have to pay out more tha half a wage for childcare.