Hello everyone, please help me with this stupid situation I navigated myself into.
So, today I was offered a job. It is a small job, a shop assistant position. I had the interview last week, and it went well, but over the week I realised I do not want this job. (Part time with shift changes on the monthly basis, so it is difficult to arrange childcare.
Right now I work for a warehouse (started last week, and very new to this.) It is boring, but I can organise childcare around it very well.
I am waiting for a job interview tomorrow, it will be by phone at this stage. It is more in line with my previous training, but still a basic job, a sales assistant position for a biotech company. Also I have a special skill regarding this job, that is why I applied.
I think, I would have a chance to get this job, but obviously, I could not be chosen either.
For context, I am a science graduate, postgrad level, and worked as a science translator, teacher, librarian in the past. My work history is patchy, and I was a SHAM for nearly 14 years. I am 47 years of age.
I have been thinking of getting a job in a library (there are science libraries here where I live) and eventually move back to freelancing too (my ultimate goal).
I thought that working in retail would give me reference as well as some up-to-date customer service experience that is always wanted in a library. I was too obsessed with the customer service experience hence I applied. (but did not dare to apply for a library assistant position.)
So if I turn down this shop job and will not succeed in my next interview I will end up doing the same warehouse job I am doing now for the time being. Also I am very embarrassed by it, and it seems that I wasted other people's time. (I was sure that I would not get the job, so no harm is done.)
Your thoughts would be much appreciated. Thank you.