Hi All..
This is probably quite outing if any of my friends are on MumsNet but that's alright as to be honest, it's nothing bad as such!
Anyway, yesterday my employment was terminated with immediate effect after having worked there for little over a year. I was given the reason that they basically did not see improvements on things that were brought up in a previous meeting. To put it in to context, I made a few mistakes on fairly simple tasks. For example, prioritising and a few errors on our internal system. Baring in mind, these were not mistakes detrimental to operations and were easy fixes.
Now I hold my hands up and say I am far from perfect but I showed up every day, put in my all and was well liked (or so I think). I am a bubbly, approachable person and always willing to help - even if I didn't know the answers, I'd try to find them.
The team I worked in had a change in management a few months ago which I thought could only be a positive thing but if I'm honest it's really opened my eyes. The manager in question did not even sit in the same office as I or my colleagues and whilst not happy with my errors, which I fully understand - was not there to see that 99.9% of the time I was on the ball and getting things done. After the previous discussion, I really worked hard to make sure I was taking extra time so that I hadn't missed any steps but towards the end I was so terrified I'd make any errors it probably made me worse.
By the by, I've had some amazing messages from my now former colleagues stating how shocked and saddened they were to see me go and to not get the opportunity to say goodbye at the very least (which is fine IMO because I'd have been a blubbering mess). I've also had many messages stating how much of a joy I was to work with every day and how I'll be missed. This has made me feel marginally better, like I'm not a complete moron but surely that's quite telling as to why it might be a bit rash regarding the decision my manager made to let me go?
I was very settled, enjoyed my work and took pride in it. I loved the people I worked with and thrived on the environment where there was a lot of laughs and good craic as they say. So settled that my partner and I decided that we'd like to start trying for our second baby around Christmas time this year and that we were both in jobs that were stable and could see a future in.
Now I feel like my life is spinning out of control and really unsure of what I should do! This is where you come in..
Do I push through and try to get another role as soon as possible to keep money coming in?
Or
Do we just say f**k it and start trying now seeing as I'm out of work?
Or - bonus..
Do I push through, try to get another role as soon as possible and start trying for another baby at the same time?
*We aren't flush by any means and would probably have to rely on a little top up of my partner wages with universal credit.
I know workplaces shouldn't discriminate but I feel it would be very difficult to get a job if I was pregnant and I'd also feel like a bit of a fraud possibly getting another job and falling pregnant after a short time!
I know realistically only I can answer this dilemma but it would be nice to hear another's perspective.