Hi all.
I recently returned to work about three months ago after Mat Leave , in that time they changed my job role and, promoted me over an older and long standing colleague. Everything was going ok until they moved me last month. Since then, I’ve been gossiped about, people making up lies that I back stabbed the colleague. People taking bets on me getting fired.
it’s come to a point that I am having panic attacks, can not sleep. I’ve lost 8lbs in 3 weeks, great as I shifted the baby weight but not so good as it’s come at a human cost. I am crying and losing confidence in my ability to do my job. The perpetrator is bullying someone else but the company don’t seem that fazed to take much action. Their philosophy is, I’m being paid well to just take it on the chin. I cried so much I thought I couldn’t breathe.
I am filled with dread thinking of going back in tomorrow.
There is no HR per se and everything I say, falls on deaf ears. I can’t believe that my baby’s turning one and it’s been overshadowed by me having a complete break down this morning in the bathroom.
We need the money because my husband was made redundant in March but has a new job but it’s peanuts compared to his old role. We can just about cover the mortgage and essential bills on his wage so my salary is much needed but I can’t feel this ill and unwell doing the job. My husband thinks I need to speak to my GP, if I am signed off, that’s fine but can I be signed off and hand in my notice?
It’s come to a point where I am physically and emotionally exhausted and, I want my appetite back, I want to smile again, I want to be able to sleep again.
I’ve lost hair which may be weight loss related as well as stress and, honestly, if I don’t take a break, I scare myself thinking just what this will push me into or to do.
can someone just reassure me that things will be ok and, I’ll be fine?
I’m so scared.