How to get old job back?

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I am going to try and keep this short as it's a loooong story. In a nutshell;

Senior colleague bullied 4 women. One by one they all left. One of the women was me. He made me look stupid, feel stupid and frequently humiliated me infront of our bosses. He was a toxic asshole who even hacked into my projects, created errors to make it look like I'm useless.

My self esteem was absolutely obliterated by this man. He wanted to initiate an affair and I said no. Hence why he turned nasty.

In the end, I ended up so broken and quiet. I didn't realise it at the time but I "quietly quitted" - I was a shell of my former self. I could barely speak if he was in the room.

So he got what he wanted and I left. I became very depressed and I'm still suffering with low self esteem issues.

I loved my job so much and my other colleagues were like best friends. And I miss it and them so much.

Toxic man has now left! And I would LOVE to go back.

He ruined my reputation after I left and my ex bosses think I'm a piece of useless crap (low self esteem again)

Anyway, I want to prove to them that I'm great and I want to go back. But how??

(Previous to toxic man being nasty the bosses all loved me & frequently complimented me!)

Ooh just to add. I left 10 months ago and he left today (and he's already been removed from the website which is usually a sign that he didn't leave on a good note!)

Will it be the same though? Different people, long term effects of this man, overcoming his actions and what he's said?

Are you still in touch with people there?

Why would you go back to a company who didn’t notice or investigate a senior member of staff bullying others, surely if the 4 of you left there must have been questions asked regarding his conduct at work. It’s no coincidence that 4 staff member all under him in hierarchy left.

id never go back to an old work place.

This company stood by while this happened, why would you want to go back?

Thanks everyone for your replies. At the time I thought it was just me & a personal vendetta.

I was embarrassed about the affair initiation and didn't think anyone would ever believe my side of the story. He was literally THE golden boy.

However, it all came out over the last few months. Nobody admitted that they were bullied while they still worked there, everyone quietly left like I did and admitted it afterwards.

He was a very cute and charming man. He was very polite and lovely to everyone but nasty too. A real toxic gaslighting piece of crap.

I would email HR and state that if there were any openings you would love to return now that X has gone.
W hat have you got to lose?

I feel so embarrassed about it all. I'm worried the bosses probably still think I'm meek and useless.

Ah self esteem issues are horrible. Such a huge road block!!

I definitely wouldn’t go back to a company which allowed this to happen.

Be happy you’ve left a toxic environment, and put your energies not into showing those people you’ve left behind that you were fab really, but into being fab in your new place - which hopefully has a much better environment in which you can actually thrive.

Thank you for this lovely lovely message. DH agrees with you.

You're all so right!