As I left work on Friday I promised two project teams I'd put in some extra hours over the weekend to try and get them what they need from me.
I haven't as unexpectedly had to drive for 7 hours to rescue a teen from a hotter than hell festival and the other teens came home from their dad's early.
Im in the civil service in a function which all major change work initiatives must flow through. Recently promoted so although I still have my own project responsibilities Im now accountable for the entire teams work.
We are haemorrhaging staff due to poor management and better salaries being offered elsewhere. We keep running recruitment campaigns to fill 15-20+ vacancies with no success.
I spent most of last week dealing with shouty people who want to get their projects delivered before the end of March else their stupid funding stupidly evaporates if not spent.
The organisation has also recently decided to shake up its way of working with new leaders, processes and comms.
My head is spinning with it all and not sure I can cope with endless weeks of unreasonable people expecting unrealistic output from the talented but stretched staff I've got.
What can I do? I've tried asking if there's a way of extending these budget expiry dates and apparently not (it's a daft governmental thing).
There's also a tsunami of new work wanting resources with a current lead time of approx 4-6 months. This news is going down poorly.
It's not my own personal fault the civil service is being run the way it is on the shoestring budgets it is but it is me being shouted at or bearing the brunt of fraught project delivery staff.
I used to love my job but now it's giving me sleepless nights and robbing me of weekends/evenings.
I am a member of the union but I don't think I'm there yet for raising an issue with them.