Recently changed job from office job with mediocre salary to NHS band 3 with a pay cut in the hope of gaining some job satisfaction. I never thought that money would bother me until I took the pay cut but I've become increasingly paranoid about the extra pressure out on my DS and frustrated that we can't do the things that I want to do in life. More frustrating is that everything I unconsciously seem to want to do in terms of gaining skills or experience all are leading towards being more on the ward however this would then be a band 2 which is even less money. I am not as happy as I expected in my current role and keep striving for this band 2 job however then I have this internal conflict of realising I just can't cope with taking my salary down even lower. My DS earns just above the threshold meaning we can't get any benefits when considering our household income. I was so proud of myself for trying to gain a job that would make me happy but now I'm just struggling with this battle in my mind of striving for something that I may enjoy which is more hours and less money vs wanting to have more money for our family lifestyle. I don't even know what I could do as an alternative so I suppose i don't even know what an other option would be to suggest. I'm just disappointed in myself perhaps and wanted to vent!