I have somehow put on a front at work that makes others assume I can handle all sorts, not get stressed, not cry etc. The last few months have seen my workload increase insanely in a job that is still very new to me. There's a huge shortage of people in the team so lots of people are stepping up beyond their roles and there's generally a lot of pressure. I know my manager is under a lot of stress and pressure as well.
I've been crying in the evenings at least twice a week, I feel so lost and overwhelmed with how much there is to do, there's been very little training and support and it's remote work which has made it harder to pick things up. Questions I ask the team get ignored for days/weeks and it's mentally exhausting trying to chase simple answers on systems that are exclusive to the company and I couldn't possibly know the answer to from any other source.
I've started making small mistakes in areas that shouldn't even be my responsibility anyway, whilst my main area of work is being neglected. I don't know how to communicate this with my manager. I don't want him to think I'm disorganised and incapable, in a way I do like the added pressure and the opportunity to get wider experience but I feel like I'm doing everything badly at the moment by spreading myself too thin and trying to juggle so many things. I don't know how to communicate honestly that I can't cope without coming across as just moaning. I'm also worried that if it's in person I might actually just cry and not even get any words out. I really don't know what to do.