I'd prepped carefully as imo I've had a rough ride (had to pick up where previous encumbant walked out) , been really trying to help boss out with planning, started some new initiatives etc. All to no avail. I've missed my targets and honestly don't know what I'm meant to be doing aside from looking for another job.
Anyway last week I'd prepped on a form I'd found on their system, to use as an aide memoire in our meeting. 5 minutes before we were due to meet my manager called out "where is the pdr form on the system' and to help her out I said I'd just searched for it. she said I was meant to fill it it and obviously I said I had, to which she said could I send it to her. I baulked a bit as what I'd written was quite direct and honest. i tried to say no tactfully but she insisted. I did some minor edits and sent it.
So then guess what, in our meeting she virtually cried, said how hard it is being a manager and asked for specific examples on instances where she'd 'done' what I'd listed as needed improving. I felt dreadful. But I managed to stick up for myself. she denied she'd offered me a promotion last year (nothing in writing) and I shared that I been suffering from menopause issues and work-related anxiety. I blame her for at least 50% of thus last point.
But can someone give me a mantra or some advice going forward? my job seems to empty and useless right now? I'm meant to be in a meeting with her now, she's possibly avoiding me. i' m extra worried she might put the boot in in an important board meeting later this afternoon.
help!