Please give my head a wobble - all great on paper but still feel "nothing" re work (Civil Service)

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I know that I am extremely lucky but am also a bit "numb" about work and don't know how to get over it.

Lovely Mumsnetters please help or share similar experiences.

In short:

I am in a full time, permanent position within Civil Service
Very reasonable pay and benefits (overtime etc..)
Workload is varied and exciting at times. Exhausting and tiring at other times.
I am (as are many) just coming out of Covid-heavy workload (very heavy at times due to nature of job)
We are starting to get back to "business as usual"
However I am absolutely and totally floored and disinterested.
I am tired, still WFH (no option to return - and not sure want to) and for want of a better phrase "coasting".

How do I get out of this ennui? I am over-50, have pension plans and mortgage to pay - so don't want to leave but need to feel something.

Basically job manageable, pay and benefits good, no desire to leave ... but is this it?

Does this resonate with anyone else? How do you get your mojo back?

CS has great options for shadowing, mentoring and secondments. Why not tlak to your line manager about a temporary trial or move of something else. State it as career progression or a chance to reinvigorate your enthusiasm after the covid work? It may give you ideas of other things you can do in CS, thus maintaining benefits, or make you grateful for your current role, which you can then return to

I absolutely recognise these feelings. I’m 56, been working on a Covid emergency response team since March 2020. Unlike Mr Rees-Moggs visiob of us watching TV and going for leisurely walks, We have worked ridiculous hours for two years, including over both Christmases. We are all shattered, some just burnt out. Our team is being disbanded and work moved into BAU. So we have no choice but to move into other roles. We are all ‘coasting’ ie working normal hours, having a lunch break, whilst we wind down the work and move into other roles.
I can’t summon up an ounce of ethusiasm, already declined one role as it would be another full on role, particularly over the summer and only temporary. I want to take several weeks off in the summer to spend time with my son to make up for the last 2 years and while he still wants to come away with me.

So I have decided to go. I’m putting in an application for full time fostering and hope to be gone this time next year.

I’m involved with a number of corporate projects eg I run the dept Adopters network, so am focusing on those to make sure they can carry on when I leave.Otherwise they can stick me in any old job - but probably the Covid Inquiry Team - until I go.
If you really don’t want to leave the civil service I’d second looking at the shadowing opportunities - there is always something going in our Private Offices. Or look at other depts. Several people from my team have moved out to other depts. They just needed something different.

Apply for a level transfer doing something completely new? I did this and it is great moving to a totally new job and new team, but retaining all the benefits and the familiarity of my office. Move to a role that's in the office or hybrid? There are so many internal opportunities in CS there's no reason to be fed up and coasting in a role that you've lost interest in.

Thanks all - so glad to feel that I'm not the only one feeling this.

I know I am "privileged" in current climate but finding energy to break out of the disinterest is hard.

Will look at opportunities to see how/where can transfer professional skills. It's hard because I'm part of profession where we are a "skillset" within a "skillset" - so fear that may be the same wherever I go

However that pessimism is probably what's holding me back too!