This is a bit long and complicated - if anyone can help it would be appreciated but I realise it may not be possible.
I have severe depression that included psychotic episodes and suicide attempts etc. I have been off work sick for a very long time. I have been employed by the same company for over twenty years and this is my first time off sick (albeit a long one) so I'm not really sure of the process and consequences of this absence. I submitted medical certificates but whilst I was off my line manager called asking me to go to Belfast and Scotland. Unfortunately at the time I was still unwell and my disabled father (who I was the primary carer for) was at end of life. I begged family for help but no one would be with him ( Covid). Work told me that as I couldn't do this work they didn't have a post for me. This sent me into a spin and I had what the psychiatrist called an old fashioned breakdown. She still doesn't think I am ready for the pressures of work (its a highly pressurised environment) but I feel that I need to sort out my position so that I can factor it in to any future plans (to be honest most hours I feel suicidal but that is being worked on).
The complication is that since that telephone cal from work I have heard nothing and they have continued to pay me. I am on loan from another organisation so I am wondering if I may have slipped through the cracks. I tried to contact my old line management team in the organisation that my contract is with who are paying me but they have all left and the old team reorganised. I dont really know what to do. I thought to speak to the Union and get some legal advice. I dont want to make things worse. and am petrified of having no where to live (I have a mortgage). If my contract is terminated is there any process that has to be followed? I am worried that I am not well enough to work yet - I have hallucinations and other issues. Would I be able to claim benefits to help with housing? I live alone and simply have no one I can turn to. I would be grateful for any advice. Thank you.