Feeling lost

[Owlette123]

Apologies, I feel this is probably more a woe is me post.

I'm nearly 35, 2 children, currently in maternity leave.

I just feel like I've hit a "what do I want to do with my life" type hurdle. I was working full time in a managerial roll, but now I have No 2, it doesn't feel feasible to return full time and with one whose just started school - plus I don't want to be absent for them working 10 hour days.

I just don't feel like I have a passion right now, my dream has always been to have my own business (me and husband) but we just can't find anything suitable.

It's just a scary thought that I have another 30-40 year working career and I don't have a desire to do something specific right now, just feeling a little lost 😞

I just came here to write this exact post. Totally lost.

I am pushing 40. Young kids. Recently left a job I hated. Was there over a decade. Very safe but so so dull. Part time on around 30k but actually I ended up working full time hours (nature of job).

Left to go to a new job. I’m not loving it. Director level. I did double my pay though. However the threat of redundancy is high in this sector and at this time.

No real dream. Live in a black hole when it comes to jobs. Just shops and local services. I need to be local or WAH. Because of the kids. Need to pick up at 6 and drop off too. Can’t commute.

I would love to work in a school (I think) but if pays so crap and people seem to hate it. I couldn’t afford it. I don’t think. I like the idea of being able to make a difference. Have a rewarding job.

Stuck doing something I hate because of money. My husband runs own business but money not reliable. He loves his job.

Why not start a small sideline if you can fit it in around life demands? Treat it as a hobby first...something you enjoy and feels a positive challenge..this might lead to bigger things..or in the meantime helps you explore new ideas...

Have you spoken with your DH? This should be a joint decision. Can you go back part time and start a side business? Better to have stable income even if it means on part time.

How long is your mat leave?

We've already agreed part time is best, it's just difficult to decide in what capacity really - even if means leaving current job, there's nothing out there I'm drawn too that gives me a real desire.

We've been trying to think of a side hustle for months and just can't think of anything suitable (I've done them since I was a teenager trying to make something take off - selling jewellery, make up etc. I've done various part time sales I guess the issue is, nothing calls to me (alright Moana ) and makes me feel a sense of happiness/want