Hi, I apologise for the long post but I’m after some advise.
I have been a stay at home mum for 14years and I have 4 children ages from 5-14yrs. I previously worked as a care assistant, (without qualifications).
I am 35, married for 15years, although it hasn’t been a happy marriage as my other half has a drinking problem and refuses to seek help!
I stayed because I have no where else to go with 4 children.
When we fight my husband reminds me that I’m worthless and everything in our home belongs to him.
I am constantly fighting with my children and I have no support from their dad. He constantly undermine my parenting skills and I feel so fed up.
I have since suffered with anxiety, depression and constantly feel like a failure in all aspects of my life. I have no family or friends who I can turn to for support.
Now that my youngest has settled into primary school I would like to get back out to work, to get back my sanity and to be independent again. The problem is I have no qualifications. I left school at 16 without GCSE’s. I had a very difficult childhood and constantly moved schools (no fault of mine) and have gone through life on my own with no support from anyone. I met my husband at a terrible time in my life and hoped things would improve.
I have no idea what career path I would like, especially as I’ve been away from the workplace for so long. I am quite smart and sensible for having no qualifications but I lack confidence and I am having so much anxiety thinking about interviews. What advise can you give to me to get my life back on track? I would like to study a diploma of some sort but have no means of funding. I would prefer an equivalent to GCSE’s because I want to avoid the stress and anxiety of exams. Ideally I would like a job in an office or similar.
Thank you in advance and a special thank you if you read this far.