I have worked for a company for more than half a decade. It is a sort of zero hours contract, although there is usually some work each month. Over the years, there has been an increasing demand for casual staff (like me) to jump through more and more hoops, and a constant stream of unpaid extra commitments. Basically, the company wants as much out of us as it can get.
About a week ago, I made a mistake. It was nothing major, but the response I got from the company was quite intimidating and patronising. I responded politely and determined to leave the company as soon as possible. The company almost always communicates in a way that resembles a bossy head teacher e.g. 'It has come to our attention that [...] If this continues, there will be a reduction in allocation [...] or contracts will be terminated.'
I crafted a message of resignation and I was going to send it last night. However, I considered the matter, and came to the conclusion that although I utterly hate the job and although I have two other part time jobs, I cannot afford to give up that strand of income. Basically, I am the only wage earner in the family and too many people depend on whatever I can bring to the table.
I just feel so frustrated. The work should be something I enjoy, but I do it mechanically, checking and double checking because I they could 'let me go' at any time. What adds to my frustration is that many people who work casually for the company are vulnerable or carers (like me) and I feel the company treats us in this way because it knows we are unlikely to leave of our own accord (last night proved this to me).
Is anyone else in a job they hate, and if so, how do you stop the frustration and anxiety from affecting other areas of your life?