I found out last week that the project I have worked on for 5 years now will not be funded beyond the end of his financial year. This was unexpected as we had been assured by our funder that this would not happen. Whilst it is a blow it is also a huge relief as the last five years have been a constant battle for various reasons to long to go into.
So my fixed term employment contract ends on 31 March and I have started looking for alternative employment. I simply cannot hang on until the end of this contract and start looking for a job then as I have bills to pay and a mortgage to service. If I find another job before the end of March I will be handing my notice in and leaving.
The problem I have is this. I have been leading on the organisation of an event which is due to take place in early March. If I leave before then there is nobody to pick up the work I am doing and the event will fold. I would like therefore to wrap it up now before the plans become any more advanced and lots of people end up wasting their time and money. It is a conference/exhibition event. I have several speakers lined up, all of whom will be travelling considerable distances and taking time out of extremely busy schedules to join the event. Exhibitors will soon need to be invoiced and I would need to commit to a fair amount of spending in early January for things such as catering, venue hire, delegate packs/gifts, AV and staging and so on. I cannot in all conscience do this when I know that I am looking to leave and yet there is a slim chance that I might not find a job before my contract ends in March in which case the whole thing could go ahead.
I am really torn and not sure how to play it. My instinct is to wrap it up and focus on all the things that need to be done to wind the whole project down (not just this event but all the other activities we have on too) to sort out the billing, the grant claims and a lot of other admin stuff. On the other hand I feel it would be very sad for this event to fold and feel I should persevere until I find another job but then there really would be nobody to pick up my side of things when I go and the event would fold anyway.
If anybody reading this has any thoughts on how to play it I would really like to hear them. My dilemma is not helped by the fact that my colleagues within the project, think we should just carry on as normal. Their attitude makes me feel that I am wrong to suggest pulling the event.
Any thoughts?