I'm starting to think I might just be shit at my job and it's really getting me down. I worked really hard for my degree and a relevant masters whilst working full time, but feel like maybe working hard isn't enough?
Long story short I lost my job when I told my employer I was pregnant. Took them to court and we agreed on a settlement. This was when I was just 6 weeks pregnant as we had no Covid rules in place at the office and I was worried about miscarrying after a history of them in the family. So I had pretty much all of my pregnancy off, in which time I had hyperemesis and was completely bed bound/ in and out of hospital for four months. So my mental health wasn't great after this.
Post baby I managed to find a job working 20 hours that fits well around me and dd, she is 4 months old. However, I can't help but think the CEO doesn't like me? A few comments and looks he's made make me feel like a waste of space. I was really struggling with imposter syndrome before I went back to work and I feel like it's just escalated by his opinion of me. I'm on a 3 month FTC which they said the plan was to make me permy but I feel like that's just not going to happen. I find myself horrendously cringing after things I've said if they've not been well received by him. My anxiety is through the roof. Any tips?! I'm 3 weeks in, will it get better?!