I don't know why I am posting really, but I'm in such a funk with my career at the moment.
I've been in my office job for 10 years and I am hating it more by the day; nice colleagues have left and not so nice ones joined and the overall the culture is changing. The department I work in is set to be amalgamated with another which could make for a fresh start and some exciting new challenges but I don't like the people I'll be working with when this happens, nor the ethos of that department; it'll be very target driven and this just isn't me.
I think I've just been there too long – I don't have the energy to adapt to change or like it enough to want to. It's time to go.
I've applied for a couple of positions that I like the look of but not got interviews, but openings that excite me are few and far between plus I can only work part time due to other commitments.
And my confidence is really low - I'm menopausal so perhaps that has something to do with it? I'd like to do something a bit different than an office job but i don't know what and I'm somehow doubting my ability to do the most basic things. The idea of a new role and high expectations of new employers paralyses me.
My children are older and don't need me anymore, but elderly parents are a drain and I feel constantly wrung out with life. I wish I could be a housewife! But we need the money, especially with the cost of living increasing so much.
Ugh. Thanks for reading this far.