Just looking to vent or info. A few months back I made a mistake at work and was involved in a work situation. Do to the incident and my mental health dipping I went on sickleave.they offered me suspension bur my manager and union said my mental health poor which lead to this incident so was aggred I remain on sickleave till it was solved.plesase don't watch hunt as I'm not looking for sympathy. I had a investigation meeting at work and the allegations were upheld against me which I haven't denied. Due
To my mental health which caused this incident as I wasn't acting normal I wasn't dismissed buy I was redeployed as a sanction and can no longer return to my work dept, have also had to drop a band so money lost.Im still off sick as mental health don't feel I can return just yet.cant return anyway while I'm waiting to be placed which should be within 8 wks. I'm still in contact with my old colleagues and as far as I'm aware they are expecting me back at work as my colleagues aren't aware of what's gone on just I'm sick and I feel would be slightly surprised that I would be involved in anything. I'm not looking for sympathy as I know I did wrong and it's upsetting that I can't return to job I love but it's my fault.
One of my colleagues asked to meet up with me but I made an excuse as I feel ashamed to tell them about it and that im not returning and If I say I am I feel I'm lieing to them but I can't tell them. While I still remain on the work rota no one will know I'm not returning until I move elsewhere however once I've moved I won't be.not sure I will be ever able to admit I did something then got redeployed so I feel I will just disappear from the team.unsure if the manager is allowed to tell them but I don't feel able too.has anyone else had this where this just disappear and start elsewhere as it upsets me that will happen but I can't bring myself to admit the truth to people. Also does anyone know if I can if a vacancy occurs reapply for my old job in 12months once my sanction has ended, they may not take me but just wondered if I can reapply if I don't like my new job
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