Feeling Lost After Redundancy

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I was made redundant a few months ago from a job I enjoyed and was good at. Since then I've been doing some temporary work but feeling despondent and lost about the work situation.

The temp job I've been doing for a few weeks was advertised as a permanent position and I regret not applying for it.

I think I have held myself back from applying due to having had a bad experience in a toxic work environment about 6 years ago. I know it sounds ridiculous but it really knocked my confidence and I am reluctant to apply for any jobs I think I might fail at.

Overall I have little confidence about my abilities due to lots of put downs over the years despite having qualifications. I can hide this very well.

Another job has come up but I've left it too late to look into it to make sure it is something I could do well.

I'm beginning to get worried about finding more work but don't want to take something that isn't for me. I can support myself on savings for about 6 months.

I don't know whether I am being sensible or if I need to take a leap of faith. Anyone in the same boat?

I full understand everything you have said. I was made redundant in January and it has honestly shattered my confidence so badly. It has changed so many aspects of our lives as well as I was term time and now doing year round and school holidays are a nightmare. We cannot take any annual leave as a family together, we have to take totally spectate leave and this will continue until I get a new job.

I am also still very bitter about it all how the company can ruin lives like this. You can't help but take it personally.

@ItsSnowJokes I hope you get a new job soon that you enjoy