Started a new job about 9 months ago after my old company went bust and I lost my job. Even though I am doing the same role/job title I have done for the past 7 years the sector is completely new to me and the job in itself is completely different to any of my previous roles. It's much bigger and involves more people.
I feel like I am back at the start again, just starting out in my first job. I feel useless, have no confidence and truly honestly I can see this job has made me realise I am not very good at my profession, I have just been lucky in the past 7 years that I have worked in companies where I could coast by.
Just had a meeting where I tried to take a bit of ownership and direction in my work as all my peers do and suggested something which was immediately shot down in a big way. I really had to hold myself together to stop myself from crying, I'm so embarrassed and I'm sure they could see it in my face. But I'm working on a really last minute project that I feel so out of my depth on that this just tipped me over the edge.
Not sure why I am posting but just want to vent and get my feelings down I guess. Not sure where to go from here. We are saving for a mortgage and/or planning a move abroad next year hopefully so I know I just need to suck it up until then but I just feel like I've hit 35 and lost all direction in my life and I don't know what I want to do anymore.