I started a 8 month secondment to another department last month. I had no experience in the field so we discussed that I’d need extra training and support.
On my first day I was handed notes on all the ongoing work and told that everything that was urgent was marked. I was given some basic information about the team set up, this took 20 mins and then I was left to it.
The person assigned to support me works PT and he was very friendly but I have been told by coworkers just to ask questions as it’s a bit complex to explain it all. The problem is, as I have no experience or knowledge of the field, I don’t know what questions to ask.
I was sent into client meetings on my third day with no understanding of my role. I’ve told my manager I’m struggling and have been placated or sent to ask another member of staff for help. For example I asked for a process guide on something they do regularly. My manager advised me to talk to 2 specific colleagues. One came back and referred me to a document that had nothing to do with what I asked. The other still hasn’t replied 3 weeks later. I’ve now been told to find out and write my own.
I spend my morning, evening and weekends in a state of anxiety. I have a huge fear that I’ve forgotten/not known to do something important. I’m struggling to eat properly. My sleep was dreadful but has improved.
I contacted a counsellor to get some tips on coping with the anxiety. She said that my lack of training and support is not my responsibility. This made me feel better but now I’ve convinced myself that it is my responsibility to find ways to learn.
Is this just how they train people now, am I expecting them to hold my hand? Or should they have provided more training?