Leaving at end of probation period

[Vegasbaby2019]

Please can you help me work out how bad this is? I have an interim appraisal coming up and I'm considering handing in my notice.

I'm completely overwhelmed with the role, making numerous errors and my mental health is suffering. I'm not sleeping, I hate making errors and find it difficult to write them off as me learning. Major staffing decisions are made on the back of my work and I currently have no faith that I'm providing the correct information.

I'm putting in the hours to try and learn the processes and complete the work. I work about 30% over my hours each week unpaid but the additional childcare costs wipe out my salary.

I would be happy to leave, but I'd rather resign with a neutral reference than be dismissed.

I realise I'm being pathetic and flakey but I can't see what additional support I can ask for (there's no one else in the company who can train me) and the role currently seems insurmountable.

People sometimes find jobs aren’t for them and leave quickly. It is one of those things, it is not that bad a thing if that was your only question.

Sometimes companies aren't very good at supporting or training new people, especially at busy times they can be forgotten about - it's not great but it happens. It sounds like you don't think there are any solutions but is it worth a conversation just to check?

I did this recently. It was a bit more of a jump or be pushed situation but I just couldn't get to grips with the job and kept making errors, the more errors I made the more I lost confidence and was scruitinised and it was a vicious circle.

It's tough out there at the moment so will you be able to get by for a while? If so, and you are that unhappy, I'd get out whilst you can.

Thank you all, I appreciate your replies and support. I have an appraisal in a couple of weeks so I've got the opportunity to have a conversation, plus I've had a chat with an acquaintance who knows the sector who suggested that asking for an external mentor/coaching would be reasonable. This would then put the ball in the company's court to see if they'll offer it. If they don't, then it would help clarify in my mind that it's OK to chuck in the towel and resign.

@Vegasbaby2019

Thank you all, I appreciate your replies and support. I have an appraisal in a couple of weeks so I've got the opportunity to have a conversation, plus I've had a chat with an acquaintance who knows the sector who suggested that asking for an external mentor/coaching would be reasonable. This would then put the ball in the company's court to see if they'll offer it. If they don't, then it would help clarify in my mind that it's OK to chuck in the towel and resign.

Sounds like a good plan! Good luck and keep us posted!

I realise I didn't come back to update after my earlier post. I did indeed resign and finish in a few weeks. I'm still working masses of additional hours but its OK knowing the end is in sight.

I've had support from the Chair of Trustees, who feels as though I've been unfairly blamed (so goodness knows what was said behind my back) so it sounds as though I might be able to get a reference after all.

Thanks for your support