I started a new job mid December, then lost my dad on new years eve. I then caught covid mid January & ended up in hospital. Funeral was beginning of Feb & I went back to work a few days after it. I had my probation extended, which was to be expected as I hadn't been at work for a lot of the original probation.
I'm over the covid physically, but I can't stop making stupid mistakes! It's like I lack concentration & do not read things mis-read things or just forget. I'm making myself look really incompetent stupid & downright thick if I'm honest. I'm do scared I'm going to fail probation & I go home feeling very depressed when another mistake is made. The thing is I can do the job! I have been doing this line of work for 35 years and have never been incompetent like this. I feel like zi talked the talk at the interview and am now showing myself as a fraud. I just don't know what to do to become competent, I know how to do the job inside out, I don't know what has happened to me.
I don't want to lose this job, everything about it is good. The management are very understanding but there are only so many errors they can take. I'm almost 56 and want this job to be my final one before I retire. Feel so bad about it and dreading going back to work on Tuesday 😪