Hate new job :(

[Bellendejour]

I’m feeling really low. I’ve started a new job after being made redundant two weeks after coming back from mat leave which really shattered me. I’ve been at the new job for two weeks and the workload is crazed, loads of overtime, no lunch breaks to keep up. Today was the same, crazy stress then I had to present and had tech issue but I was also nervous and really shit. I hate presenting, I’m no good and just have no confidence now after the redundancy. I can do the other bits of the job but it feels like having a flame directed in my face all day. Feeling really hopeless and like a total failure, I just can’t cope. Not sure what to do. It’s only a temp shortish contract, do I just see if they get rid of me? Or quit? I just don’t know how easy it will be to get other work but it’s making me so stressed and miserable. Has anyone been through similar and what did you do?

Sorry you’re experiencing a hard time,don’t quit it easier to let contract end
You’ll probably need a reference from them too,so grimace it out
Yes I’ve had locum posts I didn’t enjoy, and I pretended I loved it til next assignment

Oh you poor thing. From what you’ve written this is everything to do with your confidence and nothing to do with your ability.
Many, many people hate presenting - give yourself a break! The fact you got through it is great, and next time it will be even easier.
Keep going, you have new job nerves and your confidence is on the floor after redundancy.
But the fact is you picked yourself up after redundancy and secured a new job - well done you!
The workload may be a bit crazy now but it may well ease off. Give it chance. And it’s all harder and overwhelming when new.
Hang in there!

Thank you so much for replying. I will see if I can work out a way to get through the stint. Maybe they will steer away from making me present now anyway! I think it’s a weird thing of really not enjoying it but also not wanting to be shit at it. I’ll see if it gets any better over the next week.

Thanks again