I freelanced for a client for around 1.5 years before they asked if I wanted to go on a 6 month FTC. I did so so as not to lose a client and because of lockdown. I also missed being part of a team.
When we had the chat, it was clear that it's more of a "let's see if it works for us both" as it was with a view to going perm. I don't see that the work I'm supposed to do is temporary at all - it's ongoing.
Anyway, the general day-to-day talks suggest they see me in their future (things like my line manager asking what I'd like to explore more in my role as it develops, etc, and invites for big meetings after my contract expires). It's coming to the end of my contract though in a couple of months and I obviously need to know if it will be extended.
The problem is, I'm now pregnant but very early days (6 weeks). By the end of the contract, I'd be past 12 weeks. Me being me, I'd feel so guilty chasing and trying to push for perm (if they're happy) knowing I'm pregnant. Equally, I feel like the FTC means I have less protection.
Now I'm pregnant, I am utterly exhausted and it's affecting my productivity so badly. And to make matters worse, it's not just the pregnancy - before that I was still not 100% as I found that meetings as an employee interfere with my ability to get my content down - plus I
felt my productivity already go down a bit with the latest lockdown - I think maybe I've been depressed as I was getting tired so easily and brain fog.
So in short, I feel like I've not made the most of the opportunity (although the feedback so far has been positive) but I do love this employer and feel like I'd have a future once out of lockdown and maternity. I could also up my hours after the first trimester to cover some of my work on maternity.
So should I push for a perm without being honest or just be honest? I could still miscarry at any time. I absolutely hate lying and being deceptive.