I really, really hate my new job :(

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It's my first 'proper' job in my field. I really, really hate it and I've only been there three days.

It's quite a technical role and the training and induction was way too much information in a short space of time. I'm constantly having to chase anyone in a higher position than me to ask them what to do or ask them confirmation so I feel really inept and annoying. Going by the job description I was over-qualified for the role which is why I've been surprised at how much I'm struggling as I the job description made it sound really simple. There's a million and one things to remember and any mistake is easily noticed as mistakes are automatically logged by the system and that then triggers a group meeting to discuss why the mistake was made and I just hate it.

I don't know what I'm doing. I've read and reread what I'm supposed to do but what actually happens in practice conflicts with what's written and even when I ask different people for help I get different answers. I spend most of my time standing around waiting for help. When I do get help it's very brief and I end up having to go back again and ask further questions.

I know I'm not the only employee struggling with this. I feel like all the superiors presume we know a lot more than we do and so it feels like they talk on another level. Their training was a lot longer and more intense and I think they think the same was done for me when it wasn't.

I know I'm being ridiculous but I just have to get it off my chest after a day from hell.

No you aren't being ridiculous, I had a similar experience when I started my new job a year ago. I felt it was a step down to what I had done all my life (PA for a lawyer) as it was what I thought to be a simple admin job. It wasn't!

There were numerous processes and procedures with what seemed like hundreds of instructions and clicks of a mouse and the smallest error would throw the whole process into disarray. I was actually in tears on my second week thinking what the hell had I done. The training was so intense and much more than I was expecting. I was so overwhelmed. I nearly threw the towel in more than once.

Anyhow, that was a year ago and I would say it's only the last three months when I've felt really confident doing my job and I feel like I'm actually really good at it. I also enjoy it and I never thought I'd hear myself say that. However would I go through it all again? Not a fucking chance!

I think what I'm trying to say is sometimes this is normal for when you start a new job but sometimes it isn't and it's a sign that maybe it's not the job for you. I think you just have to go with your gut. If you have a line manager can you arrange a one to one?