HI all. I'm looking for some insight really, I think. I work in a Charity (quite a well-known one, with a national presence) and I'm finding things a bit..strange. I've been here two years in a paid capacity so not a newbie by any means. I do not have a background in the charity sector, having spent all of my career in education (as a teacher and manager). I took this job after a period as a sahm. I volunteered initially and offered paid work. I was temporary for almost two years and I am now permanent (whatever that means).
I have never found the work difficult and I have a solid record. I do not make errors and I am thorough and punctilious.
However, I find the organsitional culture very odd. There does not seem to be an particular leadership, or focus. For the first three months in the job, I did not interact with my manager at all. There was no training, and no direction. Everything was a bit hit and miss. It wasn't a problem for me at that point, as the work was relatively easy.
I'm now in a much more difficult job (my choice) and wfh since last March. For the first 4 months in the job, there was no training, no identification of training need, no training plan. However, we are expected to reach a standard of work which is pretty much error free without any kind of proactive input from management. Everyone is supposed to be "helpful" but in reality the "help" is hit and miss. I've basically taught myself the job out of a Handbook, and resources cobbled together from the internet. Any training I've had, I've had to practically beg for (I'm talking basic training here, not anything fancy). I try to raise these issues and any questions are met with silence.
I'm beginning to feel there's some sort of conspiracy going on which I'm not part of!. I feel like I'm running round in circles just trying to get the basics of the job done.
I feel like I'm getting the side-eye for asking perfectly reasonable questions and beginning to feel somewhat paranoid.
Is it me? Are other charities like this? The vibe of the organsiation is happy-clappy where everyone is "nice" on the surface but I'm beginning to wonder if this just a veneer.
Me? I feel invisible, patronised and disrespected.
Anyone else? Is this sort of culture just a part of working for a charity or am I just a complete misfit?