Just that really. I started a new job just as lockdown began. I spend my life on zoom and teams. I’m craving human contact and bonds as I feel I only have superficial relationships with my colleagues. I ‘float’ between two teams as part of my role and therefore feel a proper part of neither. My bosses take little notice of me other than a monthly 121 when relentless positivity is expected or you get criticised on ‘behaviours’.
I’m lonely and drained. Today I’ve just declined the majority of my zoom meetings as it’s rarely noticed whether I’m there or not. I feel like I’m just DONE.