How am I going to cope?

[MrsCremuel]

Fucked up a bit today. I'm due back at work the week after next. Will likely have to reapply for my job so had a coaching session booked in with a career coach type provided by work.

Completely forgot. Took my DS for a walk, it totally slipped my, mind despite being in my calendar. I've been off work since April 2019 as I extended my leave and my head is not in it. Feel so stressed and anxious already about how I will cope. DS18mo still doesn't sleep through the night and wakes usually at 5/5.30am which I find hard. Husband v supportive but working full time.

Due to go back 4 days a week but just feel this proves I won't be able to cut it. In tears.

It's a big adjustment, @MrsCremuel - is there any way you could do fewer than four days a week for a while, to ease you back in? Maybe two days a week for a month or so?

@RedPandaFluff unfortunately not, I had asked to return for 3 days but they can't share out that much work. Just hoping that once I have days I can dedicate to work it will be easier. Very hard to hold both things in my head at the moment.

Sorry to be negative but I honestly believe that 4 days is the worst of all worlds
If you are not careful you end up working full time for part time wages