oh god, i dont want to.
im worrying encase i miss dd too much and then im worrying encase i dont and that means im a bad mum.
shes only 21 weeks but i have to go back due to money etc.
shes going to be looked after by mil and i panicking encase she does things i dont want her to or feeds her the wrong things. im envious that mil will get to spend all her time with dd and do things that i should be doing. mil will be telling me what dd does and new things she has learnt.
shes mine and i want to be the one who sees her firsts.