Posted here recently. Re bullying. I decided to get some outside supervision. It turns out, no wonder I was feeling to anxious. I'm not getting the support I should be or should have had as a newly qualified mental health nurse. I went into the office a couple of weeks ago after months of feeling de-valued, dismissed and patronised and just froze. It was like I couldn't even think straight. I do think the stresses of the pandemic and dc's being home, single parenting have played a big part in how I'm feeling too.
My supervisor has explained that I have been let down by the service and totally blocked from learning and he advised me to see my GP and take sick leave until he can help implement some support within my team. At the time this felt helpful. It's what I have really wanted from the start. Some support and understanding of my position as a newly qualified nurse. I'm into my 3rd week. I spoke with my managers manager and he explained that I should have had more support than I had been given and he was going to speak to my manager. I just feel so anxious about going back. I didn't go to my manager as she was the problem. Now I have to face her and the rest of the team. I have been looking for other positions but nothing has come up.