Anyone else feel lonely/a burden on furlough?

[kaykkies]

I've been on furlough since my work found out about the scheme. I've had no direct contact with my employers apart from letters which has assured me that my job is safe. Only from contact from colleagues do i know that they are seeing furlough out to the end of October for us all.

I feel semi depressed and lonely. I wake up for nothing, go to sleep for nothing, nothing to think about, motivate me. Nada! I feel like a ghost on groundhog day.

To make things worse my other half is working from home and has more work to do now than ever. I feel in the road when hes working. A hassle and a distraction.. will remind me of this on occasion. Have no one else to speak to during his working hours. He works later/earlier hours than usual since working from home. Feel like he thinks im getting it easy and take for granted how much he is working. When it's actually really difficult feeling like i have no attention or time together that doesn't have a laptop present. We argue in a circle about his work taking over and me in the way of work hours.

I feel like it's a case of 'i work - you dont' and that people think im in this situation by choice and its easy.

I have a mortgage and bills to pay and 70% of my wages to manage all these will be tough but feel like i can't complain because im not working. I am grateful for the scheme but know that my work are only enrolling for the sake of free money.

I am DESPERATE to get back to work and have been applying to jobs but nothing seems to be out there. Have in my head that my work have done without me for this long so why do they need me back. I am clearly not as valuable as i thought.

That sounds so tough. I’m not surprised you feel like you do.

I feel the similar. I also feel guilty for complaining. I’ve lost all motivation for life. But I am also looking for another job as I feel irrelevant now.

I am watching a lot of telly. Intense crime/drama etc. It’s helping to distract me.

Irrelevant is so accurate!

Feeling guilty about it also. Like i should be writing a thank you card to all tax payers and that i OWE everyone who is working. I do! but i really want out of this situation and certainly did not choose to be in it. Employers imo lining their pockets with the money they are saving having the government paying my wages.

I want to work and have anxiety over being out of work for 6 months that I've lost all my experience and skills.

I know how your feel. At the start of lockdown it was fine as everyone was in the same position and I had 3 children at home - all who needed homeschooling. Then the summer holidays where we had a camping trip away and visited family etc as restrictions relaxed. But the past few weeks everyone (there’s only 7 of us) have been back at work for some part of the week - they all work on client work where as I deal with company admin etc. It’s made he feel completely irrelevant and unneeded. I’ve just heard that my hours will be reduced when I go back in November.

Posted too soon. I feel like I’m in limbo. Not quite fully unemployed where I would just find any job I could but now not enough hours really so trying to find a job that will work around the new shorter hours at work but also fit in with kids after school activities.

Most of my friends etc have all worked through out as lots of police/NHS/GP etc and are so stressed with homeschooling and working etc it makes me feel bad that I’m at home doing nothing.