I’ve been thinking of quitting my job for a little while, but I keep sticking it out because it’s quite convenient for me (flexi hours, short commute, but I am very overworked and underpaid.
I get very little praise (once a year, if you’re very lucky!) or direction. There are no reviews, PDRs or one to ones with my bosses. I’ve realised the behaviour of my bosses is quite toxic, they expect a lot and will occasionally give you a snippet of praise but generally wear us all down by being short, dismissive or even occasionally rude or offensive about us or our work.
I know I am good at my job so as a coping mechanism I managed to compartmentalise their behaviour and take any feedback on the chin on the most professional way I could. I thought it wasn’t affecting me but I can now see that it has chipped away at my confidence so I want to leave before they do any more damage.
Throughout lockdown I’ve felt very stressed and generally quite down. I have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach I can’t shake, and I’ve just got this overwhelming urge to hand in my notice so I can walk away from this situation. I’m not generally a stressed or anxious person. I have a 3 month notice period so this is another thing that’s making me just want to quit now.
My work has also furloughed the vast majority of staff (and made a few redundancies) but are making us work anyway. I think initially they were generally worried about the business but now they’re just milking it for as long as they can. So I have completely lost the little respect I had left for them.
We would be ok for a few months just on my husbands salary (his job is quite secure too) but we would start to struggle after that. I am considering going freelance and I have an idea for a business. It would be such a relief to hand my notice in but I am worried about a possible recession and if I should just hang on for a bit longer, but god knows how I will be feeling mentally once this is all over.
What would you do in my situation?