Obviously it’s not entirely unexpected. It’s just - I loved my job so much. It was at fintech start up, and full of lovely, progressive thinking people. Truly flexible in their approach to work/ life balance and though the work demanded a higher quality of output, which was challenging - but also good - they were also incredibly lovely to work with as people.
They were in the middle of seed 2 funding rounds when Covid hit. Struggled to get funding and their current investors said they had to cut their workforce by 40% to sustain themselves. The three of us in Marketing, all gone. Product colleagues - gone. Various other roles, all gone. Only the roles like the engineers and developers who build the tech, plus Sales left. It’s a huge shock.
DH is self employed and has been hit hard by Covid. But I was very well paid and we were fine financially. I swing between everything will be fine - there’s plenty of roles around and I can always contract as well - with panic. I also can’t face starting a new role in lockdown. I mean - I will of course but everyone hates being the new person, and that will be even more pronounced during lockdown. I’m trying to be resilient - I have to, we have three kids and a mortgage and debts. We HAVE to be ok. Like I said, there’s tons of roles when I looked yesterday.
I’ve applied for lots, updated my Cv, put out feelers to contacts. I just feel so blue. It was such a good job. I was so happy for the whole time I was there.