So since maternity leave I've struggled bouncing back and I have zero confidence. DD is 18 months old now so it's not like I'm only just adapting to being a mum but i feel a bit trapped in my own head. I went back to my secondary teaching job when she was 10 months old and honestly spent those 10 months dreading going back to work, I didn't know how I was supposed to juggle a baby with marking, planning and meetings in a school that was really fast paced and trying to impress Ofsted, so I applied for and got a new job at a special needs/mental health school. However, despite counseling and supportive chats I've gone on stress now twice since returning to work, once at my old school and once at the new school that I quickly found out was not for me (being bitten and spat at is just way out of my comfort zone! Greatly missold a job there!). Now I'm going to my third job at another mainstream school in 5 days, absolutely terrified of cocking it up and just want it to go smoothly but I have so many doubts and feel like I'm driving myself crazy. I feel like such a failure already and I need this to be a win for me. Has anyone been through anything similar?