Hi, I have a new job and serving my notice period.
The past year my confidence and self esteem has been shattered due to work. Several witnesses have come forward and told me:
It wasn't nice, I'd leave the room and I would be badmouthed
It was a group mentality
They had votes on whether they liked me- only one person said they did
One person would tell the group every time I sent her an email- (I was doing my job according to the witness)
I have been excluded from:
Christmas party
Leaving parties
Other celebrations
Locked in work- four times this year
Not acknowledged in building
Excluded from training and access to systems etc etc
Sworn at
Overworked- recently worked 12 days solid
6 day week not unusual- worked 8am to 7pm etc etc
forgotten about daily for tea rounds
It is only a small company- less than 12 employees so it has been awful, badly affected my self esteem and confidence.
However, I have been offered a wonderful opportunity, a step up, training and pay rise.
How can I boost my confidence? I feel anxious about the role, as everybody would but I do know I'm capable. But my personal confidence has taken a nose dive- a whole year of being undervalued has left me feeling miserable and whilst a new job will be a breath of fresh air, I feel like a different person to when I started this job.
The positives from this awful situation are that my gut feeling was right, I wasn't being paranoid.
Why has this happened to me? I think it's because I'm a hard worker and don't get involved with gossip. Being on a separate floor made me vulnerable. What else?
How can I boost my confidence as I can't take a break between jobs. (I won't be allowed leave as I'm training someone) and there is backlog in new job already, they wanted immediate start.