Every job I have had I have grown to detest it, usually because of a colleague or what is expected of me isn’t equal or fairly decided so i withdraw myself and get on with the work with a mindset of ‘work for money and forget enjoying it or making friendshps’.
I have been at my current job for almost 5 years which is the longest yet, I chose it because it’s local and works around the school run so I’m very lucky in that aspect. However... for the past year or so I have grown to hate it so much and dread it every day. Yet again there are issues with some work colleagues as before, I seem to be a target for people to take advantage of and I keep it to myself to avoid conflict but it becomes noticeable the more I withdraw from the specific person. I’m not very outgoing and I prefer working alone and getting on with it whereas most people there like to work together and take their time so they can chat etc.
I don’t feel like I’ll ever find a job I enjoy that suits me and my personality.
Is it likely I’m a ‘target’ because I prefer to avoid team work? What jobs would I be suited to in that case?
I’m desperate to find a new career path altogether but it’s very difficult where I live to find jobs especially if you aren’t trained and can’t travel far.
Is outgrowing your job a ‘thing’ when you have been there so long? I don’t feel like I’ll ever enjoy working or any job I get in the future and it’s hard not knowing where you belong in a sense and what work would suit you. Has anyone else been in this situation and came out of it in a happier enjoyable job?
I’m stuck by school run hours still so options are limited anyway and not working isn’t an optIon as I’m a single mum.
Thanks for reading my venting, I don’t have anyone to speak to in real life and if I do mention it I’m told to be grateful I have a job. Any advice would be appreciated.