Being bullied at work - how to regain my confidence, feels like a nightmare

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Literally just fell asleep from exhaustion, woke up again after a brief sleep with a horrible feeling like I had been in a nightmare, then remembered with a horrifying rush that I was actually still in it and it was my job.

Have been victimised since breaking my arm 4 months ago, awaiting further surgery, treated as if I was completely incompetent/lazy/stupid/dishonest rather than ill. Having horrible effect on my confidence. Trying to leave but only way to keep up with relentless workload is to work excess hours so shattered all the time.

Can't keep this up. So miserable.

I am sorry to hear this is happening. I wish people were kinder. I suggest when you walk in to work tomorrow, wear your best and walk in with all the confidence you can. You are hurt and unwell. You are not incapable and useless. Exude confidence and don’t encourage pity. Cut conversations short and be curt with certain people if you have to. People are usually thrown off by confident people and get a little frightened of change.

OP are you being bullied by colleagues or your management. If its the former escalate to HR as soon as possible. If its the latter and you are being targeted by your management can you have a meeting to discuss specific aspects of your performance they have issues with to try and break the negative cycle and agree some specific actions that you can own to get things back on track. The more specific and factual you can make it the less likely they are to indiscriminately throw vague nasty accusations at you. It's painful we've all been there at some point in our career and it's very often down to communication styles and personality types coupled with a power trip. Keep us posted and we will give you any support and ideas to get you through this time.

're your relentless workload this is something to address with your manager. Don't try to struggle on especially if you're ill.