I've run out of steam at work. My list of complaints is enormous. Shoddy equipment, the building us too small and we have to hot-desk, get in after 8 am and it's a Scrabble to find a desk with a correct docking station, working monitors or even an adjustable chair.
We have a piss poorly configured VPN so when WFH I've got a 50/50 chance of accessing the stuff I need to.
The team I work with is full of angry bitter men who blame shift, pass the buck and don't know the stuff to do their job and as you will see in a moment, just don't do what they should.
Yesterday for example, I got lumbered with writing come code for a peice of work that was supposed to have been done 8 months ago by someone else who has claimed they've done it and is now blame shifting, I've got until yesterday to learn a new programming language and get the thing to work.
As you can see our management team is not really on the ball. I've got a lot of my own work todo, yet every day, I'm redirected to firefight issues that arise from piss poor management, direction or planning, so when our audit occurs in three weeks, the stuff I'm supposed to do to get us past audit will frankly be half arsed minimum necessary and believe me I've dropped my pride in my work to get things done.
So far today, I've dealt with some emails, read some slacks but can't be bothered in adding anything because it won't get done and confcalled into a meeting and eaten crunchies, as well as doing a bit if what I've got to do
The one coworker I can rely on to help get things done is really angry right now for exactly the same reasons and is becoming increasingly harder to work with. He's under a lot of pressure, mostly from the thing I've dropped, professional pride. I agree with him, but I've completely lost the will to do anything.
In many respects I'm fortunate, I have some really cutting edge skills that are in high demand, this is down to CPD and taking courses in my spare time.
Where I live has few and far between jobs of what I do, I'd either have to downgrade to bring a regular software developer or upgrade to senior management, neither if which I want to do.
Moving city isn't really an option, I'm a lone parent to two teens so school issues and my ex (who is really toxic) will be a real fucking arsehole if I was to move to London where the job opportunities are. I could remote work, but my personal planning has become complete shite.
The job's really toxic, the team is pretty toxic and I'm becoming toxic.
I've run out of steam and I need some help getting me back on track.