I started a new job in the same public sector organisation two months ago. It’s not what I expected and I am not enjoying it. I worked really hard to get it, it’s effectively a promotion in a different department and it’s just draining me. This is not because of the work or work load, but the lack of people and the “no rush” thing. There is no one to bounce off with enthusiasm, I didn’t realise how little interaction there would be.
Now, I’m having the odd intrusive thought and my anxiety and depression is back (it’s normally very well controlled on my current meds). I am literally going mental, while trying to hang on to my job. It’s not getting better and I’m panicking. What the Hell do I do? I cannot go sick this early and if I did, it would just build the work issue up and make it harder to go back to. And of course, it looks shit. Has anyone else been in this position?