I work for a small (cash-strapped) professional services company. I experienced panic attacks for the first time a couple of weeks ago. I went to my GP and was signed off work for a few days immediately prior to a planned holiday. Post the holiday I felt less stressed but I still wasnt able to cope - panic attacks and crying, inability to concentrate, although not as bad as it was. The GP was prepared to sign me off completely but that seemed the wrong thing to do. I was worried it would leave client (and firm) in the lurch plus more importantly make it harder for me to get back to work. So I suggested I continue with the client project that is more in my comfort zone and the firm assign my other (new) project to a colleague. Thus minimising client impact and temporarily reducing my workload and stress. This was been accepted as a workable solution by both client and my firm.
However....2 days into "reduced hours"...
my line manager told me today that their insurance will only pay out if I am signed off sick completely. It is better for them if it is black and white - fit for work and working the usual 40+ high stress hours, or not fit and signed off completely. He suggested I change my work contract to part-time hours but I said I wasn't in favour of that. I am reducing hours temporarily on medical advice because I am unwell not because I want to work part-time. I don't need work stress to be replaced by financial stress. He asked how long until I would be better. I guessed 1 month would be sufficient? I go back to GP later this week and I could do with guidance as to my best options. I am keen to work, I did a good job the last 2 days, slower than normal, 15 hours rather than the usual 19 or so, and on my easier projects, but solid work. No panic attacks in 3 days plus a weekend. Close to tears on occasion yesterday but not sobbing at my desk as I was before. Today less emotional again, til i spoke to my manager!! I am optimistic about my recovery, but I need a bit of breathing space.
Any advice? How do companies manage phased return etc with their insurance? Do the hours I don't work just need to be counted as sick leave? Am I really better being fully signed off? Is it unrealistic to think I can crack this in a month?