Hey everyone.
Sorry in advance if I waffle on a bit in this post. I am just feeling so lost and confused right now.
Last May I had a good job with a big company and was earning well. The hours were great and the people were great. I had been there 3 years so was starting to become a little stagnant and fancied a change.
I applied for many jobs but eventually got a job for a very small printing company. The owner promised all these amazing opportunities in the interview, however when I started it turned out I was packing boxes and basically just the dogs body. We didn't get on much and she sacked me.
I spent 6 months searching for a job I would love. I would love anything outdoor or charity based, but with no experience it made it very difficult. I was relying on my partner to pay the mortgage and in the mean time I worked up a large credit card debt paying my own personal bills in which I didn't tell anyone about.
In the end due to financial pressure I took a job again doing Data Administration. Something I really dislike but needed the job. I started in January but already crying before, during and after work. Calling in sick as I can't face going and just feeling so depressed I cannot face been there, but with debt to pay off and bills to pay I feel stuck there. My probation is up at the end of the month and I have a feeling they will not take me on which I kind of hope for but if they do my notice period will then be 3 months, which I really do not want.
The working atmosphere is so horrible there, it is always awkward and there is one young girl that seems to run the show. If she cries and feels like everyone is against her then you have to apologise to her about it even if you haven't done anything wrong. She is left to distribute work which she does unfairly so she gets less and it seems the boss just favours her so much. She has been nasty to me and others in the past and it allowed to get away with it. She makes things feel so tense I dislike been around her. I have severe mental health problems in which I am awaiting treatment for, coping with all this on top is really getting me down.
I have applied for other jobs but nothing yet. I have 3 weeks until my probation is up. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? What did you do? How did you cope with debt or bills? Should I leave on my probation or can I ask for my probation to be extended?
I really have no idea what to do right now. All I know is that I cannot carry on like this :(