I have name changed for this as it could be identifying if anyone from work is on mumsnet.
I will try and keep this as brief as possible, but basically I am faced with a situation at work of having to choose between two roles.
I started my current role about a year ago (have been with the company over 5 years so this was just a change of role). It started off without any line management responsibilities, but then in the summer I was given one person to manage, and then two. I am doing a professional qualification and was under the impression that I was getting a kind of 'introduction' to line management as part of my development etc. Anyway, due to various issues including understaffing, high workload etc, the team have not been meeting deadlines which has reflected badly on me.
My work decided to do an investigation meeting about my performance and went through some random examples and I responded. I had just found out I am pregnant after two miscarriages, and did not need this stress so told my manager and HR that I was pregnant. HR were supportive initially and said the investigation was overkill and unnecessary, but then they spoke to my manager, and then came back with a proposal for me to do a more junior role as a way of reducing stress at this time of my life I.e while I am pregnant.
The junior role they offered is paid £5k less than my current salary and does not include line management. My current job description does not actually include line management either, but they made it clear that if I choose to stick with this role I will immediately have full responsibility for the team (currently 2 people but they have agreed to recruit another as they are ridiculously overworked). I have a feeling they will be watching me very closely and trying to find things to pull me up on in order to do more performance management.
So do I go for the junior role, take a pay cut and do mundane tasks i can do with my eyes closed, and accept the humiliation of the whole company knowing I have essentially been demoted and have a new manager come in to replace me, but at least be safe in my job while waiting to go on mat leave (if I don't have another miscarriage that is!)
Or do I keep my current role, step up and make an effort with line management now I have had more exposure to it and been given some feedback, and use it as a chance to turn things around? I will then get to go on mat leave in September so if I can keep things going until then, I will then have a think about my long term options once I am due to return. I will finish my professional qualification in July 2020 so I can leave after that if need be, but would rather not leave before as it is a pain to get a new employer to agree to pay for it etc.
Thank you for reading - I am told I have to make the decision on Monday so don't have long to think about it!