Hiya everyone.
So, I'm having a really tough tough time with work atm.
I work for a company who ironically support women with termination of pregnancy, in their call centre.
I started in August '18, and 1 month later found out I was 6 weeks pregnant.
I was completely honest with them from the beginning and told them I was keeping it etc.
My sickness wasn't too bad to begin with, but my performance was affected slightly as I kept running to the loo in the fear of throwing up on my desk. Once my sickness had died down, my performance improve and I was told I was doing really well. Apart from now suffering with PGP :(
Then, my world crashed. At my 20 week scan I found out my little boy has 2 types of CHD, and he will need life saving open heart surgery when he's a few days old. The doctors even gave me the option to have a termination myself. I was so devastated I can't even tell you. I had a couple of days off work, purely because my job is talking to women who don't want to be pregnant and I already loved my baby so much I didn't think I could deal with it right then.
I went back to work 2 days later, I felt ok, but the occasional phone call was hard to take, some of them were so similar to my own situation I had to have 5 mins off the phone.
I am now up for a probation review, where the managers decide if I should keep my job or not.
Due to my "performance" they are concerned about me and if I can be kept on as an employee. I have made a few small mistakes (ie wrong name spelling,) but never made a big mistake where a client hasn't had her treatment.
In a regular situation, they would extend the probation period 3 months to try and support employees to reach targets set, but I will be on maternity by then. So they are saying they are not willing to do this for me and it looks like ending my employment is the only option.
This will be so much extra stress that I don't need now if this happens, I need a job to go back too, and I need SMP to be paid easily to me.
I'm at a loss on what to do, all the extra stress has been really bad for my mental health so I have been signed off work, and I'm terrified to go back into work in case I make more mistakes and I'm out the door.
Anyone here have any suggestions on what I can do!?
Sorry for the rant