I’m really struggling at work. I’ve been in a new job for almost 6 months and I left my old job as I felt I needed a better work/life balance and general lack of resources. I was very open and honest about this at interview and I was basically told a pack of lies.
New job is far worse than old job and I’m at breaking point mentally.
Working hours in the daytime are fine but I don’t get to take a break (no-one does) and I’m on call 24/7 2 weeks out of 4 and this results in numerous phonecalls in the evening and again at the weekend and today I’ve had to go and resolve an issue which took 4 hours. I’m exhausted. I can’t not do this as I work in care and so people are relying on me.
I’ve not had a day off sick in 3 years. People in this industry don’t do sickness really and my company is no different. Their attitude to staff members who are genuinely sick is shocking. You are expected to pull yourself together.
I don’t know if I can do it any more. I love the people I look after and I love my staff team but I am constantly compromising my own morals and I am in such a negative place I find myself wishing I would have an accident on my way to work as at least if I was dead I wouldn’t have to go in.
I have 4 children and we rely on my salary though half of it goes on childcare.
Feeling awful.