Never thought I would be writing this but everything is a mess and I have no idea what I should be doing to get out of it.
My boss is a bully. I have been in my role for 10 years and she has been my line manager for the past three. Up until now I have been 'hanging in there' but last week, the ceo asked me to do a task that she normally does and I think she thought I'd asked to do it and was a threat to her. This has happened before.
She has been giving me jobs without enough info to get them right (deliberately leaving stuff out which makes it impossible to deliver what she wants), then finding fault and saying 'you have got this wrong, you have to understand what you have done wrong so you don't do it again'.
On Wednesday last week she sent an email with a list of fabricated 'fundamental issues' to professionally discredit me. I have cracked and been signed off with stress for 4 weeks.
I have 20 years experience in my field and in that time, have never had a bad annual review or one to one, have got along with everyone and worked hard.
I am in bits, waking early and feel utterly unable to cope with everyday normal things. My job is so important to me as is my reputation. She is the most senior HR person in our organisation and is on our executive team so quite a bit more senior than me.
What do I do? What should I do? I feel like this will never go away and have the most awful feeling in my stomach that I just can't get rid off.