I cant believe that im going to leave baby after nearly a year together, writing this is making me cry. Was ment to go back after 9mnths but could bear being away from baby so decided to take another 2mnths. When he was first born all i wanted to do was go to work i missed being me, being what made me me back then i suppose. However now my baby is 11mnths and has this amazing little personality and all round cheeky monster, the thought of leaving him is breaking my heart.
Ive left pictures up of me so he doesnt forget me, he looked at the pictures and smilled then tried to slobber all over it.
I know im not the first person to feel like this but it really is a shitty feeling. Had that sicking feeling for past few days and ive been awake for an hour and now its becoming real as i need to get up in 15min to get ready.
Today will be the longest day ive been apart from my baby since ive had him.