3 days back and I want to cry!

[LowFatMilkshake]

Why did I come back to work. I miss my DD so much because she is at pre-school in the morning and I am at work in the afternoon, I just want to hold her and my DS for hours when I get home, but I can't because it's thier bedtime and if they dont go to sleep they turn in to little monsters and it throws all the other routines out. My nice restful evenings which started with tea at 5.30pm, while I was on maternity leave have turned in to compacted horrible rushed rounds of bathes and microwave meals and scalding coffee and housework and bed by 9.30pm.

Feel like shouting bloody womens libbers for getting women out of the house and into the work place!

Just going to collapse in a heap and sob - I'll be fine in a year or two I'm sure

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And now I'm being ignored here as well...

don't really know what to say ...
but sometimes having a whinge is good for the soul

Oh

Why DID you go back?

List all the reasons.... it might help

Tell us more and we can help.
Why are you going back. Why are you so upset.

I have come back to work because we cant financially mange if I dont. We dont need childcare as DH has a job at different hours which allows us to sharecare.

Before I had my two children I was trained to a semi-proffesional level for my job, then they got all tight with spending and refused further funding because I am not actually selling to customers - but am a legal obligation, so I am in a niche market you could say for other employers.

I came back on Monday and was told I would be waiting up to 5 days for my computer account to be re-enabled. My manager said to take things easy but gave me a list of 13 jobs, including stuff that is nothing to do with me but there is only 1 other person in the office who is up to thier eyeballs so I get it. I feel completely out of my depth.

My own role seems to be nothing more than putting plastic folders of info together at the moment - which I see as an office junior role, it's mundane and time consuming. But because they are in demand and there's no one else the other 12 jobs all go by the by.

I just feel so downhearted. I know at home I have two lovely giggling children who would appreciate me much more than this place.

Oh LFMS

Oh Lowfat you sound really down.

Good idea about listing all the reasons that you went back to work.

My advice would be to try and concentrate on doing things with the kids when you get home...why not cut bath a few nights a week and have some real quality time? The housework will wait until they're in bed and how about cooking a meal for the next day the night before too?

These are only suggestions - I work part time and fanny about on MN for most of the day, am a screaming fishwife and my house is a tip which makes me cry. I have good intentions though....

I was on the verge of tears, then my Ipod, which I have sneaked in to one ear and tucked down my bra - beacuse my boss is out played 'Oh Mandy' (BM version) and now I am welling up because it makes me cry as well - soppy mess that I am [bluch].

Just want to be a SAHM. Just want to cuddle my babies.

Just feel like I am in a long tunnel with no light at the end. Apart from maternity leave there are no other paid breaks from work - I'm here till retirement!

....

is there anyway to stay off work a bit longer?

mortgage holiday?

downsizing?

it;s horrible isn;t it , when you have to go back and don;t want to

Oh I am so sorryLFMilkshake.
Is there a chance that things are going to improve at work ?
You must keep your CV out there aswell and keep looking for something better.
Plan things to do with dd and ds for the times that you are together.
Is there no am jobs either at your work or elsewhere that would free up your pm ?
Big hugs to you.

Thanks for the sympathy everyone. Got home to DH in a foul mood because DS missed hs mummy and refused to let DH more that a metre away from him all afternoon. DD is good for her daddy though and eats better than she does for me.

But I just lost it with DH when he moaned about DS and told him to go away and leave us all alone

It's hard for him too as he is working from 5 am, but being miserable at work all afternoon and then coming home to an unhappy household was just too much for me right then.

Feeling slightly better now though, am definatley going to circulate my CV more aggressively and you never know - when I get to do the job I'm trained for I quite good at it!

Awwww hope you feel better for simply having got that off your chest. It IS hard to begin with - after all, you're doing two jobs, you don't stop being a parent just because you're in paid employment too. Some good suggestions about cutting back on anything that isn't strictly necessary. My dcs only had baths when they really needed them rather than every night. Plus ready meals are a godsend at times - forget any guilt that makes you feel you should be preparing a full scale meal from scratch - ready meals these days can be just as healthy and nutritious anyway. Finally, look on the bright side - at least you and your dh can share the child care - most people who have to go back to work are also forking out a lot of their income on child care, so really you're lucky that you can share this between you.