Wish I could go back to work

[Underappreciatedtococreator]

I have been out of work for two years since our youngest DD was born. Returning to work after mat leave would have cost us money. I would be working full time to loose £200 a month because of childcare and travel costs. The problem is I miss work and the thought of sitting around for another year is depressing. I miss adult conversation and I although I try, I know that I am falling out of the loop in the industry and this will go against me in the future. I know I'm being ungrateful and that I'm luck to stay at home with my children but is it so wrong to want to be more then just a mom.

Sometimes you have to look at the long term picture. Obviously I don't know what you do but I'm inferring from your post that you clearly have trained for and worked in a skilled post. If that 'moves on' what are the odds of you being able to get back in to that role?

Have you investigated all the help you might be entitled to ? Tax vouchers, 30hours free care for working parents, coming up to 15hours Early Education Entitlement, possible tax credits ?