I was glad to leave work to have DS as so many things were becoming unbearable. I had a couple of health issues caused by stress (the GP said). Before I knew I was having DS I had started thinking about what else I could do, looking at jobs which paid less but were interesting and possibly open to me.
A couple of things changed for the better just as I left but I have since heard of some things which are going to make my life harder again. So I am more or less dreading going back.
I have to work 3 months before leaving to keep my maternity pay (NHS). I know this sounds awful because it is unfair to employers. At the moment the prospect of only going back for a bit is what is keeping me going.
It feels wrong to go back knowing I might leave but equally I can't really afford to pay the year's money back. Has anyone else done this? I know it may never happen as I need a job to go to...and that's the other thing, references if employers know you only came back for the minimum time.
I'm just musing really.